can't do it
don't have time
stresses are high
i'm sorry.
you will get your novel later.

Cody is talking all kinds of crap about me, and it's hurting my feelings. I hate this. I hate being lied about, especially by a stupid boy, a lying boy, a fake boy,  - the worst, most poseur-ific boy i have ever met. Like i would have sex with him. And if anyone ever did, why would they tell anyone? What a loser.

So I had so much fun with Rainbow today in ISS.
FRITOS!
POOP!
HIGH KIDS!
PERFUME!
CHARLIE!

i <3 inside jokes.

Livejournal friends,

I would like to be a hipster.

some of you might not know what this means. it means i want to be cool, up on the latest trends, attractive, and a pseudo intellectual (which requires much more effort than being an actual intellectual). i want to be pretentious. i want to be aloof. i want to wear designer duds. i want. i want. i want.

i don't know what really made me want to be a hipster. all the popular kids are scene, as you well may know. but something draws me to the hipster crowd. maybe it's the elvis costello glasses (i just bought some today!). maybe it's the adorable unwashed hair. perhaps it is the neat phrases they only are allowed to use. maybe they listen to the best music and watch the best movies.


help me become what i am at heart.

Alyse

livejournal,

today was odd.
i felt quite lovely today because i was dressed as an 80's prep. it was fun to dress up :D.

i will continue this later. i must go do laundry.

LIVEJOURNAL!
today has been considerably fantastic. it started off bad, had good parts, but ended up being fantastic. as all of you know, i have been changing names of people. so if i name someone who is my friend on livejournal, don't fret! you will not be found out! 

this morning was awful. i was woken up late by my grandfather. it was clash day, so i threw on a ridiculous assortment of of shirts and socks and other things. it ended up being very hot. not hot as in attractive, but hot as in sweaty and uncomfortable. i missed my bus, so i was like "shit, this is gonna be an amazing day." and when i got to school, i was late for first period. my first period teacher was a complete jerk. all she ever does is pick on me. in this case i will use her name. MS. AYALA >.> oh well, one day she'll get old and fat and ugly and i will be teaching her grandkids.

random movie line: "i'm gonna have this baby and it's gonna sell drugs to your kids!"

i then go to my other classes and things perk up.  i have very hilarious friends. i got many laughs at my outfit today, which was what i wanted. my other teachers was very cool. My AP Lang teacher thinks i'm a good writer, which means a lot because she knows so much about everything.so this made times good. i got to lunch and i saw Thomas and Clara all over eachother, which was definitely awkward. i will admit that i have a minuscule crush on Thomas, but Clara is my friend and she seems ridiculously happy. so i will disregard my crush.

in Chorus today we had to dance. i can't dance. at all. and the choreographer was yelling at me. i felt like an idiot because i could not do the dance moves. i was entirely embarrassed.

after school, i went to the sci-fi club meeting. i first had to change out of some of my clothes because i was about to die. i put my bra in Rainbow's pocket and didn't go back to retrieve it. when she handed it back to me, my pal Lars was standing beside me and he just laughed. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LARS! i played D&D with my group. Jade and i kept texting Camden. it was quite amusing. :D i am going to murder one player, however.
Camden drove me home and it ended up being very wonderful.
i think i might be going to homecoming, now.

sometimes things are beautiful, you know?

Alyse

oh dear livejournal,

life has the tendency to suck a great deal.
i came to school today in a relatively good mood. i had no reason not to be. i went to bed early, woke up on time, and i was not in a rush. i get to school and have homeroom first. my lesbian friend (not the one who wants to hook up with me) was there and we talked about her very attractive girlfriend. it makes me happy to see other folks happy. i will call this lesbian pal Barbara from now on. i love her a whole bunch, because she is very nice and never has malicious intent.

in first period, these stupid boys were throwing objects at the back of my head. there was no point to this. i just sat there while they aimed their paper balls and pencils at me. my teacher said nothing.

In college writing, i had to sit next to a girl i will call Bera, this evil girl who enjoys spewing vicious lies, especially about me. she is a blonde lionette, a picture of perfection. but she is a liar. A FAKE. and i am tired of her talking about me. i came into class late and a boy i will call Seamus asked me what was wrong. i told him a few things, including (i pointed to) Bera. Seamus nodded and said he had problems with her as well. Seamus and i also talked about his girlfriend Myrtle and this girl Nothing who spreads rumors about them and other upperclassmen. i have met Nothing and i find her to be very annoying. i have a feeling Seamus and i will be talking a lot more. we usually never talk, even though we go to the same church.

i came to fourth period late with a pass. i had gone to student affairs to vent to my AP.

when i got to lunch, i sat with Dragora and Virginia. i sold my salad to a girl, so i went to get a lunch. well, apparently Dragora and i cut in front of these people. i know that we didn't but they claimed we did. This guy i will call Loserface began to curse me out and threaten me. i acted like it didn't bother me, but it did. and on the way to APUS, i began to cry. i went to student affairs to wait for my AP again. he took forever. he told me he would write a referral for Loserface. and he spoke very poetically about the human nature. i was impressed.

i went to chorus and i did not sing.

i did well in chemistry today. i did my work. i also talked to my teacher. i am convinced he is an idiot. very sweet, but not very bright.

i want to see how the rest of the night plays out.

yours truly,

Alyse Hooten

Dear livejournal,

Things today have been pretty awkward. To begin with, i mistook that today was going to be a cold day. I wore a long sleeved black shirt and sweated the entire. i felt terrible. Oh, and my hair decided to flip in all of these crazy directions that made me look like more of a lesbian than i already do. I'm started to grow to tall for my jeans as well. so i looked entirely odd today. horrific.

things were awkward in other aspects, too.
i have a friend (i will very seldom name names) who's fiancee moved and she will not see him for quite some time. it makes her sad, thus making me sad. if she reads this, i want her to know that i love her lots :D.

This other girl, who is in IB and very beautiful, tells me that i'm attractive everytime she sees me. i know that she is interested in girls, and it flatters me that she tells me things like that. and i'm not sure if i am interested in her. she is really pretty, and i've experimented with girls and know that being with them is fun. but i don't know. i'm older now and not sure what i want at the moment.

i have this random crush on this boy at my school. he is a junior and in PRIDE. i don't know him very well, but he's super nice and he began to txt me today. i think he is very attractive, but my friends think he looks goofy. i would never be allowed to date him because my grandmother would disapprove of me being with someone of a different ethnicity. he is very brilliant, and hilarious, and adorable. :D

i was going to date this guy Juan but he got back with his ex. crappy things happen.

i've began talking to my ex best friend again. she is dating a guy who doesn't really like her that much. i want to tell her that, but she is so spastic about the new relationship. i don't like bringing people down. who am i to knock one off one's cloud. it's not my cloud. i should stay on my cloud.

i am upset about the effect my life is having on my grades, and even more upset at the effect my grades are having on my life.
i'm grounded for being normal.

i will wrap this up and tell more later.

Alyse Hooten